Divided
We had another Shibir this weekend. So I got there saturday morning. Learnt a simple gat in Bihag. Got jharified because of lack of riyaz. Heard lots of funny stories. Had some BRILLIANT food--but oh, is my stomach hating me for it now. I had mutton with Lau--a weird combination I know--but it was fantastic! And Keema, oh the keema. And the egg curry! Wah.
My riyaz has been laughable for the past three months, and well, let's just say I learnt a lesson in humility this weekend. *sigh* I'm so bloody sick of being the girl who never practices!
I have free tickets to an advance screening of Water by Deepa Mehta, courtesy of work. I wouldn't say I'm dying to see the film, but I am looking forward to it. More thrilled about the fact that it's a perk really--it kept me jumping with glee for a week. Thigns like this will make you happy when you make no money. But I'm not complaining--I think I like it this way.
For the first time, I missed an entire day of a shibir because it started on Friday and as usual we had about five days notice so taking work off was out of the question. I'm one of those people now; the ones who can't just decide to take a break from life and do music for four days of the week.
Life is so structured all of a sudden. I have joined the tide of depressing fools who have a specific "time" for everything. I am always hungry for snacks EXACTLY at 11:30 AM and 3:00 PM. I need breakfast by 9:30. I must have lunch at 1:00 or pass out. And I have been known to become quite crazy (just ask roomates) if I haven't had dinner by 6:30PM. Yes, a 6:30 dinner! I know, I'm such a traitor. There's a certain time for TV, for homework, for school. I don't have the time for spontaneous bursts of inspiration, or "the mood". As a result my sitar just keeps getting ignored. Whenever I have a little time, I cook up a flourish--that atleast feels like some kind of a creative outlook. But for how long? I don't want this to be my life. I have to find time for music. No, it's not even time that's the issue it's leisure as Robindronath called it, which is essential for the creation of any art.
I think I want to be a freelancer someday soon, to set my own pace and more importantly, to allow for a few days every now and then to just take off for the proverbial woods.
posted by goBgoB at 4:09 p.m.
3 Comments:
i know u're not wanting the routine but lately i dont know i've ben craving some sort of stability in my life - even though I've always loved my wandering studesntish lifestyle, nowadays i seem to want a little bit of "regular income" coming my way....heh.
money. bane of my existence.
5:24 p.m.
The life of a freelancer definitely has a lot going for it. There's nothing like being able to work at your own pace, whenever and wherever you want to. I have turned into some kind of nocturnal creature this month: I start working at around 11 PM and usually get done around sehri-time at 4:15 AM, have sehri with Nanu (or as a certain loser, her brother, and two little French girls I know from somewhere call her, "Didu"), and then go to bed. True, there are some work-related errands to run in the rest of the day, but there's plenty of free time as well - to read, to think and I am sure, to create, had I any real skill whatsoever in that department. I'm loving this sort of flexible arrangement as I live it, and it will be interesting to see how things will grate when I get back to the "real world".
9:24 p.m.
Free tickets to see Water? Lucky!
I have a crush on John Abraham...
8:51 a.m.
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