what am i doing?

it's so rainy and muggy today! just because i've got errands to run *grr*

was up till 3:30 editting [more like writing] siyam's essay for his "death and mourning" class -- i know! it's thoroughly depressing.

i've been in an odd mood lately, largely because for some reason for the past couple of days i feel as if i'm not doing anything productive. As in, other people are making use of their summer, working and saving up for next year, studying for LSATs, MCATs, etc, going on vacation, planning their last year in univ.... me? it's not like i'm not doing anything -- i'm taking a full course load in summer school [such a nerd], trying to devote more time to music, trying extra hard to be a more organised person... but i've got nothing to show for any of these things, no growing bank balance, no snapshots with hot foreigners, no good grades!!! and all i see for the next 2 years is this. bleh